Raw, Unflitered Me

🧚‍♀️ My fellow fairies! 🧚‍♂️

I want to share some personal successes with you... Somewhere, in hopes that maybe someone could relate to that soul-clenching desire I’ve always had - to breathe freedom. 🌬️🍃

Don’t get me wrong; no one is holding me against my will. I am my own master. 👑

But I’ve been bound by the principles of social and mental constructs. They’ve always made me feel like I live in a prison. Or in another person’s world. 🌏

Just not my world…

The peak of summer 🌞 has unleashed feral qualities in me this year. 🐾

Something I’ve never experienced before.

Since the dawn of spring 2024, my footsteps have been lighter with a beat of excitement. 🌸🕺

I LOVE being under the sun. I love playing with dirt. 🌱 I love making bird noises and guessing what the birds are replying to me in return; I relax on the grass in the evenings and doze off in nature’s lap. 🐦💤

I run free-spirited like a chicken (because that’s the only way I know how to). I jump in muddy puddles and splash water, farther every time. 💦 (Today I even scraped my thigh playing twister and having a tickle fight with my younger sister!) 😄🌀

I don’t buy hair-taming products; I want my curls to run wild, I want them to do their thing; just as I want every part of my being, to live to its heart’s desire. 🌀🌿

I’ve been so prim and proper, mannered and cultured, to sit among the circles of the good society; to have long discourses on culture, religion, and politics; to know the right etiquette for dining and whatnot. 🍽️🎩

I’m still human enough, I clean up after myself, and I maintain decorum. But I am allowing my raw side to shine. I’ve given up control. 🌟

I feel like I breathe better; I wander less in my head; I’ve renewed mental clarity; I laugh more; I express passionately, I couldn’t care less about how “ my vulnerabilities will be used against me”. I mean hurting someone with the sole intention of hurting them, says more about You than about me, right? 🗣️💪

I grew up in a “safe” domesticated environment, with unlimited food and entertainment, but still a cage, a beautiful cage. 🏠

And now I am finally Free. My mind is my own. I rise with the sun 🌅 and sleep with the moon. 🌕 I read and learn, and I don’t let an iota of self-doubt seep in.

My feet are calloused, my body has strengthened, and I’m rarely tired! I wake up salivating every day, for what it will bring… 🏋️‍♀️🌄

I’m finally, wildly Me. 🌻

Love,

Zitni Zun <3